I am feeling a lot less gloomy today - perhaps it is the acceptance of my inability to conceive on my own and the knowledge that I am on the road to DE with an 80% chance of success. (my RE's current rate of success with one IVF and one FET cycle).
If the timing works out I am also hoping for a vacation in February. B* is going to be teaching in Australia for 2 months and I am hoping to spend a week over there checking out the local scene. There was a show on public television last night on the wonders of Sydney and it got me all excited. I can't wait to be an absolute and unapologetic american tourist.