My bloodwork from this morning came back:
e2 - 29
fsh - 55
That is the highest fsh recorded so far - RE calls it a "no go"
When I spoke to the nurse today I felt an odd sense of relief. Ovaryland is closed for business - like a chapter 11 or something. The pressure and the worry is over - I am not ovulating and this is no longer a strategy worth pursuing. This is not to say that I am not angry about all the missed opportunities that I didn't even know were missed opportunities but the pressure of trying to make this work is finally at an end.
And now I can move on.