Remember the scene in Good Will Hunting when Robin Williams (psychiatrist) trys to convince Matt Damon that his crappy childhood is not his fault. I'm thinking I need a similar mantra for all the infertility crap - the early menopause, the not seeking motherhood in my late 20s or early 30s, the fact that when and if I have a baby it will probably be through DE and not have a 'genetic' connection to me - ALL OF IT!!!
Try to play the tape back now, Robin Williams' voice (with thick Bahhston accent) "It's not your fault Will. No really it's not your fault. Listen to me, it's not your fault. It's not your fault."
And just like Will, I still want to rage against the Machine.
But it's not my fault.